Friday, February 3, 2012

1:43 am

The time I started regaining my blog back. It's been months since I last posted. Reason why I blogged tonight is this negative energy is starting to take over my personality, attitude, and life. I don't know.

Counting from the day I passed the Nurse Licensure Exam, 1 year and 5 months. Still, I have no stable job. I still depend on my father's salary. Yes, I had a job last year which only lasted in almost a month, private duty nursing. I am thankful for that. My mom is pushing me to volunteer in hospitals in our city and I don't want to. Yes, I'll gain experience from it. But what's holding me back is that I don't want to work in hospitals [period] I don't want to be a nurse. But God let me pass the exam on my first take and maybe there's a reason. I've been volunteering in a clinic in our church for 1 year and 5 months now. Yes, I am happy to serve poor people regardless of the compensation. There's no problem with that. In the first place, it's a charity work.

I want to work and be payed for something I want to do. Multimedia, arts, theater, communication, events... It's just that I don't know where to start or how to do it.

I lack confidence. The only thing that's keeping me from finding a job. Thinking about interviews and exams, goodness!

I'm still dealing with changing negative to positive thoughts. I'm still grateful I have something to eat after waking up in the morning.

1:58 am

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